Day 34 - end of week 19

So, I am just two days away from my second doctor's visit. This is so bitter sweet for me.

Bitter because I am half way through my pregnancy and I feel like I just found out :(
Bitter also because someone told me yesterday I didn't look pregnant. They meant that as a complement! But it made me want to go home and put a pillow under my shirt!

Sweet because on Monday morning I will waddle into the doctor's office (okay maybe that is a bit of an exaggeration) and for the second time I get to see my baby!!! YEAH! To add the cherry on top, I will get to find out if it's a boy or a girl! Although, I am not sure if that is all good, because as you well know I would love to have a girl, but I would hate to feel at all disappointed. Not because I don't want to be disappointed but because I am so very very thankful to have a baby. I just don't want the Lord to feel like I'm an ingrate! I'm really not at all ungrateful no matter what the gender of my baby is. I have even heard people say, "I don't care what I have as long as it's healthy"... I feel like even my baby wasn't healthy I would still be so grateful to have had this experience.
Well, I will keep you posted!