Week 14 - July 19, 2010

Day 1 - 4pm is my scheduled appointment with my OBGYN. I had a hectic day that included driving all the way down to Utah county (about an hour and a half). I have to stop in Salt Lake, American Fork and Provo. I am rapidly approaching 2:30 and I have to decide if I should leave right now, or just reschedule my appointment.
I made the appointment because I had endometriosis about two years ago. No that is not a huge deal, I had it removed in a day surgery. In and out in just a few hours. My Gyno who did my surgery said that it was highly likely that this was a lot of the cause for the difficultly I have had with getting pregnant. My husband and I will have been married ten years in Aug of this year (2010).
We had the amazing opportunity to adopt our son (Garron) just three years into our marriage. So you can imagine my gratefulness not only at the time but especially five years later when my endometriosis was found.
So with this female problem my doctor (at the time) let me know two very important things. 1. I have the highest chance of getting pregnant within the first 3-6 months of my surgery. 2. Just because he removed it, doesn't mean that it won't come back.
Now I tell you all of this so you understand my mindset when I made my doctor appointment last week. I had not been menstruating for the past few months. I had also had some tenderness in my abdomen and some discomfort. All of these things caused me to believe that my endometriosis had in fact returned.
Because of all of this, I decided to head Layton (where my new OBGYN is) and go through with my previously set appointment.
If you are a woman, then you understand what a beating finding a new female doctor is! Even still I had to suck it up...explain my medical past ...and get my pap.
As my sweet doctor begins to press on my tummy I expressed some discomfort. Then he was concerned when he found some swelling. All of this caused him to go ahead and make the call to set me up for a sonogram. At this point he asks me if I have ever had this before. I explained to him I had, when my last doctor thought (and was right) that I had endometriosis.
So as we begin my new doctor Dr Johnson says, "OH"...hmm...I say, "did you find something?" to which he replied, "yes". Naturally I say, "So, do you know what is wrong with me?" He turns the monitor around and says, "Do you see what I see?". I again think it is my endometriosis back again...so I am looking for black spots. I say, "What are we looking at"...but no more did those words fall off my tongue than the doctor moved his "magic wand" then a tiny baby appeared on the screen!!! I am not certain of the exact words that came out of my mouth next, but I know it was disbelief & shock in my heart.
Ten years is a long, long time to wait for anything...but it is really hard to know and express all the thoughts and emotions I had previously been through. Believing that I may not ever be able to birth children and still wanting to be so thankful for the Child God HAD given me is a hard pendulum of emotions.
I also want to insert that we have had the blessing of my 13yr old step son living with us for the past year and a half. He is absolutely amazing, and I couldn't ask for a better step child.
As thoughts were swimming in my mind tears trickled down my cheek. There are several times on my sonogram that you see it shake...that would be me laughing! It was just so crazy! Ten years, no in vetro, no fertility drugs...just this AMAZING, breath taking surprise! WOW!
From the doctor's office I still had to run my work and finish up my day! Once I finally arrived home, my boys were scattered through out the house. I said, hey guys can everybody come in here for a minute? (at which point Ben told me later he thought I was about to announce bad news, like that I had lost my job) I said, "I have a DVD for us all to watch. They were all like Oh, ok. So I popped in the sonogram DVD. As it began to play... I look over to Garron and say, "Do you know what that is?" "What?" he asks. "A sonogram, do you know what that is?" "It means you have a baby in your belly" he responds almost unsure of his answer. "That's right!" I exclaimed in a little disbelief my self! "Do you?" he says, confirming the uncertainty I heard in his voice earlier. Once I confirmed that was in deed the case, his eyes widened as he gasped! Then I turned to Ben. Shock was written all over his face. Then a giant grin spread across his face. He did mention the fact that he thought I was pregnant. He had told me this about a month ago...he thought there was a very real possibility that I might be expecting.
Now that my boys had been told it was time to call my mom. PROBLEM...she doesn't answer. I call my sister Daphne and ask her where mom is. She tells me that mom is at Junior Camp. I ask if she has cell service there, and she thinks she does but also mentions that she might be in a church service. Hmm... So I tell Daph that is unfortunate for mom, but good news for her because now she gets to know before mom does that I'm pregnant!!! OMG! I think she is in disbelief also!
I text my mom to "Call me as soon as she gets this text"... While I wait for her to call I began to call all of my other siblings. I called Angela, then Joy. Joy also didn't answer. I then call Drew and Mystie (I knew they were going to excited as Mystie is also pregnant with their second child). Then I called Keith and Fer and then I tried Kevin's phone, since Joy didn't answer. Good news, he did. I asked him where Joy was. He said she was in the other room feeding Korbin (their brand new baby boy). So I ask him if he can walk in there and put me on speaker phone. I tell them my good news, but also tell them the same thing I had told everyone else...DON'T SAY ANYTHING! I can't get a hold of mom! So everyone is excited and agrees.
FINALLY!!! My mom calls! To which I get to share this phenomenal news. OF COURSE she is just beside herself. I stayed on the phone with her while she told any member of our family that were in sight!! LOL Jordan (my oldest brother Keith's son) was standing right there. He jumped on the phone so I could tell him the good news!
Once I finished that phone call, I made a few more calls to close friends and family (before it got too late) as it is one hour later in TEXAS than it is here in Utah.
I laid my head down on my pillow, said my one millionth and one thank you to the Lord and fell asleep.